There I stood,
tripping over Tupperware containers strewn about the floor. She sat at the
table coloring. These are the days of Play-Doh, crayons and finger
-paints. The times of wooden spoon
drumming on upside down pans. She turned to me as I scurried about the kitchen
in my busy mom mode, interrupting my momentum abruptly by the one simple
request.
"Mommy, I want a
little brother or sister."
I pause and weigh
heavy my response. Yet, I am not sure of what to say, wanting to avoid what I
do not know or am unsure about, really. What comes out is, "Sweetheart,
you can ask God by praying."
Thinking to myself, I
have answered well, I continue once more
with my kitchen busy work.
As I move about, she,
still seated at the table, folds her hands, bows her head and utters these
words, "Dear God, please give me a baby brother or sister. Amen"
I smile at her sweet
expectant faith. Until she comes over and tugs on my pants, looking up at me
with a slightly perturbed expression. I
ask her what's the matter, as her eyes dart around the kitchen expectantly. You'd have thought something was about to fall from the ceiling. She looks at me, Junior
Mint eyes, directly and replies "Well, I prayed. Where's my brother or
sister?"
You know, friends, my
sweet girl was almost three at the time she said this,
yet aren't we just like
that sometimes? We pray. Perhaps pray again. We wait. We're expectant, hopeful.
But then we tap our
foot, drum our fingers on the tabletop, fold our arms and humph. We demand an
answer.
But when God does not
answer us right away or He doesn't answer a specific prayer the way we think he
should we wonder, "Why, Lord?
"
Sometimes we forget
that our God knows the beginning from the end. He has His eye on eternity and every
hair on our head. He knows what needs to come to pass and what needs to be
held back. He knows the when. We may not understand why God allows certain
prayers to be answered immediately while others seem to remain unanswered. Elizabeth
Elliot says it best, "If God were small enough to be understood, He
wouldn't be big enough to be God."
Wow. Let that sink in and set you free. This God who has eternity etched
in the palm of His hands is the same God who leans in close and hears our
prayers. So raise your voice to Him who is listening, and utter words from
thoughts He already knows.
He is good, He is
trustworthy, He is listening.
The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who
delights in him;
though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand.