Dear God,
I'm not afraid of making the wrong choice.
That's a lie. I'm deathly afraid of wrong choices. However, if there's one thing I've learned in 24 years it's that not all situations have a "right" and "wrong." Some sit right in that grey area that I like to label, "good, better, best." So I guess that first sentence should read, I'm afraid of settling for the good and not the best. I just can't tell which is which right now.
I've been here before, this teetering place of questions and crossroads. I've been here before, where it feels like I'm walking off a cliff into uncharted waters. Should I fall or jump? Should I veer left or right?
I know You see me and my flailing mind grasping for some kind of road map or at least an instruction manual.
Sometimes I feel as though it'd be safer to wait for you to force my movement. But then I think back at the times that have mirrored this one and remember that nothing You've called me to in this life has ever been considered "safe" or "secure." And for now, I'm okay with that.
Just tell me which one to choose. Show me which way to go.
Which will bring You most glory? I choose that one.
Which will put me in the best possible state of being to relate with other people? I choose that one.
Which will fashion me to be more like the woman You have called me to be? I choose that one.
Whatever it is, no matter the cost, I choose that one.
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walking off a cliff into uncharted waters...
ReplyDeleteme too.
love this, so grateful for your sharing, julianna! xo
So glad you were encouraged :)
Deletei needed this! this is me right now and has been for the past 4 years.
ReplyDeletethank you for sharing!!!
Perfect! Isn't it crazy how God gives us things in our lives to encourage other people. Sometimes I wish it wasn't like that but when I get to see it, it makes it all worth it~
DeleteMan, has this come at the right time! I have had a whirlwind of a week! Thank you for your post :)
ReplyDeleteNgaio May xx
You are welcome friend :) Join the whirlwind club! :)
DeleteLove this post! It's not about hearing a "voice" telling us what to do in the grey areas, but using our mind, wisdom and discernment to do our best to make the right decisions. Man plans his ways, but the Lord directs his steps.
ReplyDeleteamen!
DeleteI could have written the first paragraph of this post word for word. I'm in a gray place right now where decisions need to be made. I don't like settling for good when best is available..."best" as in the words you write in your last paragraph. That is my criteria, my checklist. Thanks for your post!
ReplyDeleteThank you for your sweet words! The best is yet to come :)
Deletei can totally relate to this! i have such a hard time making decisions because i'm afraid to make the wrong one. these are inspiring words!
ReplyDeletethank you for sharing.
xo,
Andrea
So glad you were inspired :)
ReplyDeleteI love those last four lines. They're like a compass that I always need to be checking.
ReplyDeleteOooh I like the word Compass!
DeleteSo hard to do right? I wrote this because I was at a point of begging God to at least show me a little glimpse of what he was doing and as I looked back in my journal, I was reminded of this prayer I said to Him. It was like He was saying, "I'm doing it because you asked me to. This is what will bring me most glory."
Blurg :)