Grace

I'm asking for grace today.

I am asking for grace as a gift that I can give to my Luke, Charlie, and Jack.

My patience as a mother is not one of my most stellar traits. I can create stories until I have no voice left. I plan the best of weekend outings, and the teacher in me makes for one expert homework helper.

But when it comes to grace, I sadly confess it is my biggest mama weakness. It is not unusual for me to sigh and say to our middle child who spills something at least once a day, "you just spilled AGAIN?" or to my oldest who realizes that his backpack is still hanging inside our house when we pull into the school parking lot, "how could you forget your backpack AGAIN?"

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After defending my behavior for years, I recently asked God to reveal His grace to me so I could shower my children with grace in return.

Shortly after, I was drinking coffee on the couch. Instead of putting my coffee on the coffee table while I read on my laptop, I set it on the couch cushion to my left. I knew I was taking a risk, but still didn't take the time to do the "right" thing.

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And sure enough, I shifted my body just enough for the entire cup of coffee to spill all over the sofa.

While I quickly jumped up to grab a towel, I heard Him speaking to my heart.

"I did not speak sharply to you when you spilled your coffee." I thought about my spiller, Charlie, and how I would have reacted to him.

In true God fashion, when we ask for him to teach us something, He does not disappoint.

A few days later, we were 5 minutes from home when I realized that I left my cell phone on the counter.

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"Oh rats! I muttered"

"What is it, Mom?" the boys immediately inquired.

In frustration I explained,"I forgot my cell phone and we have turn around to get it."

As I hastily drove back home, I could not help but to reflect on the fact that not one boy complained about me being forgetful. I could hear the words I would use if it was my Luke forgetting his backpack.

My boys clearly have this grace thing down better than I do.

God used my guys to teach me the lesson I have been praying for. When we ask God to teach us, he answers and may often use the little ones we love as our instructors.

Teach me your ways, O LORD, that I may live according to your truth! Grant me purity of heart, so that I may honor you.
Psalm 86:11

16 comments:

  1. Ouch. I am guilty here too. Funny, patience is my gift, but grace is not. Seems like those two should go hand in hand.

    Thanks for the reminder!

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    1. I think we all are to a certain extent, just some struggle with it more than others. : ) I will I was more patient like you!

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  2. Love this. Thank you so much for the reminder. So, so true.

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    1. I think it is something I will have to remind myself of daily. : ) Thanks for reading!

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  3. Thank-you for writing this and spurring me on.
    Grace so refreshing to receive, and so hard to give.

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    1. Thanks for reading, Danielle. I hope you have a wonderful day!

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  4. I read your post and the one above it {thinking it was yours!} :: both are just excellent.
    What a constant reminder to look first at yourself. I feel sometimes like you and I are the same person when you write. We react similarly, love traditions, love our kids and struggle with patience. Amen on the last one? Eeek.
    I try to be more patient. And posts like this one make me try even harder.

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    1. Yes, you can get an AMEN on patience. Eeek is right!

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  5. I read this yesterday morning and it stuck with me all day. I had many a moment that I would have normally been very harsh and demanding of my kids (things that I feel they should know because they've been told so many times), and I thought about what you shared. Thank you for reflecting Jesus and for sharing. It has affected me, and my children. :)

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    1. Hi Elyse!
      I am so glad you found this beneficial. I know that posting it is really going to keep me more accountable. Thanks for sharing with me how this touched you. I truly appreciate it.
      Katie

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  6. I am totally convicted.
    Thank you for letting God use you in my life.

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  7. Hi Kimberlee!
    God is so good in that He uses our struggles to build each other up! Hugs to you!
    Katie

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  8. katie, wow. thanks so much. praising jesus for you! xo

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  9. Oh miss Hannah, how I love you girl! xoxo

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