I went to the CCF today and saw King’s family. I was so delighted and overjoyed when I saw and hugged his mom. I missed her. Seeing his family, his mom together with his brothers was almost as if I was seeing him too.
We missed him so much here. But I know in a few months time, he will be back with us to attend the service. King was the only one who invited his family to attend the CCF service and I really admire his willingness for his family to know the Lord, (I mean duh, how much do you have to hate someone to not tell them about Jesus? right? So go and tell your loved ones about him!) just like what he did to me. I wish I could do the same with my family although I have invited them one time last month. But I wish I could be with them every Sunday so I won’t have to go to the church alone.
But anyways, I was hoping to see Pastor Bong but I think he couldn’t make it earlier. But nonetheless, I enjoyed the service. I love what the guest pastor taught us earlier about giving and forgiveness. But I am saving that topic for my future article to make. (he..he)
I guess more importantly, through this 5 months of attending the CCF service I have learned to surrender everything to Jesus. I’ve been saved by grace and Jesus loved me. He welcomed me, and I met him once again through king, he showed me that our God is a loving God and no matter how much I have sinned against him, he was still there with his loving arms widely open waiting for me to look for him, to search for him, and to take me once again. I know I am not deserving of this love but for me and for each and every one of us, JESUS died to save us. He loved us so much that he gave us his only son. This realization somehow helped me to see the goodness in Jesus and to truly trust in him. I’ve always wanted to become a Christian, ever since I started attending the YFC 2 years ago, I’ve been praying for God to give me the fullness of my heart to take him and serve him, and be one of the YFC Christians.. but God has a plan for me. A better plan for my growth and his glory.
It occurred to me that all the while God was in control of everything, why I came to know king and why he invited me to attend the CCF. It was all planned. Carefully and perfectly planned for me. God did not only bless me with a great boyfriend but he gave me a new chance to accept him, a new door for me to open and to truly trust in his plans for me. So now, I am only praying for God to help me keep my faith growing and to show me the right time to accept him and be baptized as a Christian. They said that faith in God includes faith in his timing.. so I guess, I just have to ready my heart and change for the better so I would be worthy to receive him in my life.
P.S. The Bible clearly states: “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven. A time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace” - Ecclesiastes 3-8.