I know I say that phrase far too often.
There just never seems to be enough time in the day. There's always piles of clothes needing to be washed, rooms needing cleaned, food needing prepared and diapers, goodness the diapers needing to be changed!
And then there's my want-to-do list. I want to have more time to cook meals like I made pre-children. I want to work on all the ideas in my head for my shop. I want to exercise more. I want to finish painting our kitchen cabinets.
But I'm just too busy to do it all.
And that's just what the Lord has been working on me lately. Busyness.
It started this summer when I did a Bible study on Parenting with Intimacy. This stuck out to me:
"If Satan can't make you a "bad" parent, the next best thing is to make you an overly "busy" parent."
Hmm. Think on that will you?
My kids and husband need me. They don't need to wait a minute. They need my time. Time spent playing with them in their world. Talking. Listening. Showing them I love them by giving them my minutes.
So I started working on that in my own life.
It meant saying "okay" instead of "in a minute."
It meant making a quick dinner instead of spending hours in the kitchen cooking and cleaning.
It meant me saying no to certain opportunities so I wouldn't have another item on my never-ending to-do list.
It meant simplifying my life so I could have more TIME with my girls and husband. (I'm not saying I don't do laundry, cook or clean, or do anything for myself. I'm just trying to cut out the "busy" and create more quality time for us.)
Then it hit me again. I was reading my Bible in Luke 10 and was reminded again:
40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”
41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”
So there it is. Distracted = busy.
That took it another step further for me. See, I had been cutting down the busy in my life to make more time to love on my family and focus on their needs. But, I hadn't been taking the busy out of my time with God.
Some days I get too busy to start my day off in God's word. Wha-what?! Too busy for God.
It's okay, you can sign a petition to get me off the contributor list. But yes, I admit to hitting the snooze one more time - just in time to rush around and make a bottle before the baby wakes up, then on to the other one's breakfast...and a shower? Forget about it, that can wait. And then the rest of the day has just somehow happened and I then I'm completely exhausted to even think about reading my Bible.
So yeah, I am a work in progress.
I'm trying to be less selfish and think more about what's important. My "needs" can wait. I can work on my shop when they start school. I can cook when the girls are off to college. I can do those things later. I can't get back this time I have with them. When they do start school I imagine I'll long for "just a minute" playing with dolls. When they're in college I imagine I'll want to trade a fancy meal for a box of shells and cheese just to have "just a minute" with them eating at my table again.
I hope for myself and you too that as the holiday season is fast upon us that we can all get a little less busy and focus on the only thing needed.