The Day She Prayed For A Brother - Guest Post




 There I stood, tripping over Tupperware containers strewn about the floor. She sat at the table coloring. These are the days of Play-Doh, crayons and finger -paints.  The times of wooden spoon drumming on upside down pans. She turned to me as I scurried about the kitchen in my busy mom mode, interrupting my momentum abruptly by the one simple request.

"Mommy, I want a little brother or sister."

I pause and weigh heavy my response. Yet, I am not sure of what to say, wanting to avoid what I do not know or am unsure about, really. What comes out is, "Sweetheart, you can ask God by praying."

Thinking to myself, I have answered well,  I continue once more with my kitchen busy work.
As I move about, she, still seated at the table, folds her hands, bows her head and utters these words, "Dear God, please give me a baby brother or sister.  Amen"

I smile at her sweet expectant faith. Until she comes over and tugs on my pants, looking up at me with a slightly perturbed expression.  I ask her what's the matter, as her eyes dart around the kitchen  expectantly.  You'd have thought something was about to  fall from the ceiling. She looks at me, Junior Mint eyes, directly and replies "Well, I prayed. Where's my brother or sister?"

You know, friends, my sweet girl was almost three at the time she said this,
yet aren't we just like that sometimes? We pray. Perhaps pray again. We wait. We're expectant, hopeful.
But then we tap our foot, drum our fingers on the tabletop, fold our arms and humph. We demand an answer.

But when God does not answer us right away or He doesn't answer a specific prayer the way we think he should we wonder,  "Why, Lord? "

Sometimes we forget that our God knows the beginning from the end. He has His eye on eternity and  every hair on our head. He knows what needs to come to pass and what needs to be held back. He knows the when. We may not understand why God allows certain prayers to be answered immediately while others seem to remain unanswered. Elizabeth Elliot says it best, "If God were small enough to be understood, He wouldn't be big enough to be God."  Wow. Let that sink in and set you free. This God who has eternity etched in the palm of His hands is the same God who leans in close and hears our prayers. So raise your voice to Him who is listening, and utter words from thoughts He already knows.
He is good, He is trustworthy, He is listening.

The Lord makes firm the steps 
    of the one who delights in him;
 though he may stumble, he will not fall, 
    for the Lord upholds him with his hand.
Psalm 37:23-24



8 comments:

  1. He is good! Amen. Thank you for sharing your heart here!

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  2. So poignant Dawn. Your open heart is a thing of beauty.

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  3. I love that quote from one of my favorite authors. never came across it before. i wrote it down in a little notebook I keep. I decided recently to write down quotations that I come across. A blessed Christmas season to you! Patsy from
    HeARTworks

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  4. This morning I looked at what seems like the millionth negative pregnancy test. Before I read this post I was sitting on my couch asking God why? Why must I wait so long for something other people are given so easily. Thank you for this post; it was timely and convicting.
    Lorena from www.anopenwindowblog.blogspot.com

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    1. Lorena,

      I am so grateful that God spoke to your heart through this post.
      I pray you would continue to lean on Him and not your own understanding. One day you will look back and see His wisdom OR You will see Him better.
      May you be blessed in the New Year! In His Grace, Dawn

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  5. Haha! i love it.
    P.S. If you like poetry check out www.lizzispointofview.blogspot.com

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  6. Reminds me of our Emily. It was 9 long years of waiting for our first daughter. And then three years later our Sarah was born. She was 8 months when we lost her and oh, how I wanted another child. I had a tubal pregnancy then four years later I found out I was expecting. When we called my husband's parents his dad said, "I know what you're going to tell me -- I've been talking to God about it." His faith always astounded me. When I pray I want to have the faith of your sweet daughter, "I prayed about it, now where's the answer!" Love E. Eliot's quote. He knows and answers in His time.

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  7. Hi Dawn, what words of wisdom you give here. Just beautiful. My 5 year old grandson has prayed for months that God would give his family a baby. My daughter is expecting, and my little grandson still prays everyday for this baby. What amazes me is, he grasps the concept that God determines if it's a brother or sister for him, and God does not make mistakes. It just warms my heart. Thanks for what you shared here. ~ Abby

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