
"Mommy, I want a
little brother or sister."
I pause and weigh
heavy my response. Yet, I am not sure of what to say, wanting to avoid what I
do not know or am unsure about, really. What comes out is, "Sweetheart,
you can ask God by praying."
Thinking to myself, I
have answered well, I continue once more
with my kitchen busy work.
As I move about, she,
still seated at the table, folds her hands, bows her head and utters these
words, "Dear God, please give me a baby brother or sister. Amen"
I smile at her sweet
expectant faith. Until she comes over and tugs on my pants, looking up at me
with a slightly perturbed expression. I
ask her what's the matter, as her eyes dart around the kitchen expectantly. You'd have thought something was about to fall from the ceiling. She looks at me, Junior
Mint eyes, directly and replies "Well, I prayed. Where's my brother or
sister?"
You know, friends, my
sweet girl was almost three at the time she said this,
yet aren't we just like
that sometimes? We pray. Perhaps pray again. We wait. We're expectant, hopeful.
But then we tap our
foot, drum our fingers on the tabletop, fold our arms and humph. We demand an
answer.
But when God does not
answer us right away or He doesn't answer a specific prayer the way we think he
should we wonder, "Why, Lord?
"
Sometimes we forget
that our God knows the beginning from the end. He has His eye on eternity and every
hair on our head. He knows what needs to come to pass and what needs to be
held back. He knows the when. We may not understand why God allows certain
prayers to be answered immediately while others seem to remain unanswered. Elizabeth
Elliot says it best, "If God were small enough to be understood, He
wouldn't be big enough to be God."
Wow. Let that sink in and set you free. This God who has eternity etched
in the palm of His hands is the same God who leans in close and hears our
prayers. So raise your voice to Him who is listening, and utter words from
thoughts He already knows.
He is good, He is
trustworthy, He is listening.
The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him;
though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand.
of the one who delights in him;
though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand.




He is good! Amen. Thank you for sharing your heart here!
ReplyDeleteSo poignant Dawn. Your open heart is a thing of beauty.
ReplyDeleteI love that quote from one of my favorite authors. never came across it before. i wrote it down in a little notebook I keep. I decided recently to write down quotations that I come across. A blessed Christmas season to you! Patsy from
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This morning I looked at what seems like the millionth negative pregnancy test. Before I read this post I was sitting on my couch asking God why? Why must I wait so long for something other people are given so easily. Thank you for this post; it was timely and convicting.
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Lorena,
DeleteI am so grateful that God spoke to your heart through this post.
I pray you would continue to lean on Him and not your own understanding. One day you will look back and see His wisdom OR You will see Him better.
May you be blessed in the New Year! In His Grace, Dawn
Haha! i love it.
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Reminds me of our Emily. It was 9 long years of waiting for our first daughter. And then three years later our Sarah was born. She was 8 months when we lost her and oh, how I wanted another child. I had a tubal pregnancy then four years later I found out I was expecting. When we called my husband's parents his dad said, "I know what you're going to tell me -- I've been talking to God about it." His faith always astounded me. When I pray I want to have the faith of your sweet daughter, "I prayed about it, now where's the answer!" Love E. Eliot's quote. He knows and answers in His time.
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